Ok, it is amazing how much God can do in your heart in a 24 hour period. But it sure was a process. When I first got the news of where I was going I was pretty devastated. I didn’t even know why—well, I did know why because it wasn’t what I wanted. I had a whole plan of what I wanted and it WAS NOT in NORTHERN CALIFORNIA. UC DAVIS???
I had to head straight to dinner and having everyone ask me where I was going really wasn’t helpful. There is generally a policy of not talking about your placement for 12 hours, but I was one of two people who had just found out (there are more that 150 of us total joining staff), so it was harder to stick to that policy. After telling the first person who asked me I decided it would be better to stick to that policy. I had gotten a stomach ache earlier that day and the news didn’t help. I ate crackers, tomatoes and cucumbers for dinner (the food in the dining hall is really getting old here).
We then had a meeting that I really didn’t want to go to. I cried all during worship and kinda check out of the meeting. After the meeting I knew I needed to hang out with people or I would just be sulking in my room. After losing horribly at Settlers I went to my room.
That is when I just started crying. I couldn’t stop and it wasn’t cause I didn’t think Davis was a great place. It just wasn’t where I wanted to go. So after trying to journal and pray God revealed to me what was wrong. I had tried to plan what I wanted to do with my life, I tried to take control. This wasn’t something for me to do, it was God’s job. I had to ask His forgiveness. After doing that the tears stopped and I felt a release. I want to live a life surrendered to God, but I wasn’t surrendering.
Now Davis is starting to grow on me. I don’t know much about it, I have never been there. Everything I have heard about it is great. There are some awesome people there. Rita is here in Florida with me and we have been having some good times. I am still in process and God is using the placement process to do some great things. Davis still seems far away from a lot of the things I wanted to do, but when you put things on the altar before the Lord He is going to take them…..That is the lesson I have learned this week.
Ok, its been a hard day, took the news a lot harder than i thought I would....I am giving it until morning to let it sink in and then I will share more.......until then keep me in your thoughts and prayers.
Singing in the Rain
A lot of my recent posts have included rain, as does this one =) I must say first off that I have two assignments due in the morning and I am procrastinating on them, oh well......... After I had dinner with the lovely Rita I came back to my room to start on my work. I was feeling a little restless and wanted to do something before starting.... I heard someone asking if anyone wanted to go play in the rain....hmmmm, I shouldn't but why not!!!
We ran around like little kids kicking in the puddles and made our way to the tennis courts which were now a small lake and ran up and down them....we were joined by another friend and all frolicked and played. So fun. Kinda funny cause it was Carrie, Jen, and Kristin, lol.
Kristin and I then went to a dock and were talking for a bit. I looked over and some over her hair was sticking up, we decided maybe it wasn't a good idea to be out on the lake during an electrical storm.
Now it is 7 pm and I have work to do. I may make a trip to Starbucks tonight before they close. 8 am is way too early for class especially when you have to go to the cafeteria before then where there are 300 Jr. and Sr. high aged cheerleader.....eek
Well, no placement yesterday, so I guess I just get to wait a little longer...................
Psalms 118:8 "It is better to trust in the LORD than to put ! confidence in man."
rain, rain, more rain and a 5kOk, first off today I learned a valuable lesson......ALWAYS TAKE AN UMRELLA with you when you go outside.
You would think I would have learned this by now, but sometimes I am a slow learner. Our first week I walked out of class one day to a heavy rain fall and got wet. Started carrying an umbrella. Today I didn’t take one and it was more like a torrential down pour. I wish I could have taken a picture, I was soaked when I walked into our dorm room.
I walk/ran a 5k this morning. My times was under what I had guessed it would be.
I still have no idea where I will be placed....will find out either tomorrow or within the next two weeks. learning a lot about patience, mostly that I don't have any.
I need more sleep. Think I might take a nap now.
