I had to head straight to dinner and having everyone ask me where I was going really wasn’t helpful. There is generally a policy of not talking about your placement for 12 hours, but I was one of two people who had just found out (there are more that 150 of us total joining staff), so it was harder to stick to that policy. After telling the first person who asked me I decided it would be better to stick to that policy. I had gotten a stomach ache earlier that day and the news didn’t help. I ate crackers, tomatoes and cucumbers for dinner (the food in the dining hall is really getting old here).
We then had a meeting that I really didn’t want to go to. I cried all during worship and kinda check out of the meeting. After the meeting I knew I needed to hang out with people or I would just be sulking in my room. After losing horribly at Settlers I went to my room.
That is when I just started crying. I couldn’t stop and it wasn’t cause I didn’t think Davis was a great place. It just wasn’t where I wanted to go. So after trying to journal and pray God revealed to me what was wrong. I had tried to plan what I wanted to do with my life, I tried to take control. This wasn’t something for me to do, it was God’s job. I had to ask His forgiveness. After doing that the tears stopped and I felt a release. I want to live a life surrendered to God, but I wasn’t surrendering.
Now Davis is starting to grow on me. I don’t know much about it, I have never been there. Everything I have heard about it is great. There are some awesome people there. Rita is here in Florida with me and we have been having some good times. I am still in process and God is using the placement process to do some great things. Davis still seems far away from a lot of the things I wanted to do, but when you put things on the altar before the Lord He is going to take them…..That is the lesson I have learned this week.
posted by Carrie @ 8:36 PM
3 Comments:
Davis is by the bay!! You'll LOVE IT there, it's beautiful! I have friends who went to school there and they insist it's the best school on earth.
And, don't they still have an ADX chapter up there?? And an AGO too, I think! You could totally be involved...
But you're right...it's hard to surrender your life, especially big decisions like that...it'll turn out for the best though. :-)
sounds great--great lesson He taught your heart, and I'm glad you're seeing this opportunity with hope and joy! :-) You're in Florida, huh? :)
carrie!
how are you feeling about it now that you have had some time to think and pray about it? i aknow it wasn't your first choice but i am excited for you. and i am excited for davis - they are going to get a kick-butt girl - and that's you!! when do you have to move there??
love you css!
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