I feel like I don’t live life. Like I just let it rush by me and am numb to everything around me, everything is just rushing past me and I let it.
I mean everything. With how I live life am I allowing God to work in my life? I love Him and I want to serve Him, but do I allow Him fully in?
I feel like nothing affects me. I am sad not to be in Scotland and that I am not going back. I miss my team and people there. I miss the city, but I don’t feel it. I want to feel life, I want what hurts God to hurt me.
I don’t want life to just wiz by me. I want to live life for God…………How do I do that??
Oh Lord, I love you. I always want to love you and to serve you. Take my life and show me how to live it. This is my daily prayer. I want to stop and smell the flowers and be amazed that it is you who provided those flowers and that moment. I want to see someone who doesn’t know you and I want my heart to break. I want to wear the title of Child of God proudly. Thank you so much for making me your child. Father, take me in your arms and comfort me and allow your presence to be felt. I love you, amen.
I think as I was lying on the beach the other day I really felt God. I felt the sun rays penetrating me and I felt it was God just really wanting more of me. It felt so nice, the warmth of His presence. But then it got too warm and I didn’t enjoy it as much. I want to be able to always let Him in. How often do I not let Him in?
posted by Carrie @ 10:32 AM
3 Comments:
Carrie.....I totally understand what you are saying, and I too feel the same way. It really seems hard to slow down and smell the roses and appreciate everything in life, but when you have deadlines and stuff, it seems like all you want to do is relax and have time to yourself, and that isn't what it should be. If you figure it out, let me know, I could use some help as well.
Carrie,
Your life is an inspiration to many who know you. You do let God guide your life, and I admire that about you! Sometimes it might seem more difficult than other times to hear God's voice or to feel Him, but that's natural. Your realization of wanting to let God in all the time shows how much you do live your live according to God's ways. And remember, even though you could have had a cool (literally) time in Scotland if you still were there or if you were going back, God has bigger plans for you here. How AWESOME is that?
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