It is amazing how you can think you have everything sorted and then--BAM!! Nothing is as it was. That is what God has been doing recently.
What seems like years ago I made the decision to apply to re-STINT. I was so confident in the decision. As time went by it still seemed like the right decision. That is until about a month ago. I hadn't heard about a team for this year and I really started missing home. I wasn't sure what to do about it. I didn't want to mess up the possibilities of the team for next year. The feelings just wouldn't go away. I didn't know what to do. I sent an email asking if they had any more information and the answer was no. This was making me feel uneasy about this year. A friend told me she had been having these feelings that there was something I needed to come home; there was something I needed to be in the states for. I had prayed the night before that God would direct me in what to do next. That basically verified that I should at least let people know how I was feeling. What to do next? Who do I tell this to? I decided to wait a few days and I got an email from my Company. They wanted to talk.
It turns out there is no STINT team to come to Edinburgh next year. I have three options
1) Come back and be part of the national team. That would mean being the only American on a British Staff team but being on STINT. I am not sure about that one. STINT is a team activity. I do love the British staff and know I would be well supported and have amazing friends on staff here, but I came to Scotland on a STINT team.
2) Go back and work with the regional team. There are a few possibilities there, waiting to hear back. I could use my degree and do some HR work, possibly even recruiting.
3) Intern at Fresno State. Along with working with Crusade one of the staff members is also encouraging me to stay involved with the ADX girls. This is where I got a lot of my passion for God, where I felt lead to go into missions, where I started taking my relationship with God seriously. It was my home for the last six years. I practically lived at Fresno State.
So what do I want to do? I really don't know. I think God had been preparing me to go back to the states next year. When I talked to my coach I think I would have been a lot more shocked if there was a team than the fact that there isn't one. No I have to decide. I love the area where the regional office is and I wanted to get my degree to use it in a ministry (and I thought Crusade). I still would love to help people at Fresno State get a passion for Scotland. They are still trying to set up a partnership.
I love being out in the field, but I also really love the administrative work. Anyone want to tell m e which one I should do??
posted by Carrie @ 12:09 PM
5 Comments:
how about D) New Jersey
I'm not kidding...;)
Don't even......
Carrie, here's the thing I considered when moving to Iowa and I know you have the same thing in mind. I just wanted to be used by God and my prayer became "Lord, I'll go wherever you want but please don't send me where You're not going to be". And if you're looking for something all together new, there are some great campuses here in Iowa that could use Crusade :)
does this mean you coming home? if so we need to talk about your round buckets. Thomas is using them for toys right now :)
Really, you are in our prayers, I am sure that God has the perfect place for you!
Carrie - is the Events Planner still an otion as well? You have alot of friends here in the states who would love for you to come home and be here (including ME!) Just remember that it's God - not your friends - who ALWAYS knows what is best for you. I'd go back a year in time to look at the purpose that God called you to go to Scotland in the first place and see if you can make sense of it from there. Call me if you need to talk.
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