Lately I have been really busy and really tired. The thing is that my schedule is going to become even more crazy and busy. I have had a pretty bad attitude about things. I haven't wanted to do things, but I have, and God has blessed me through those things. I want to have a good attitude. I want to have an attitude like that of Christ Jesus. I want to consider others more than I consider myself.
I really think maybe I am going through some weird stage of the adjustment cycle. I feel happy here, but I miss people. I don't know how healthy it is to stay in constant contact with everybody back home. I need to set limits in order to stay healthy. I need to live here. This is really hard for me to say. I do love you all. Please keep me in your prayers. I hope this doesn't come off real confusing and you don't think I care about you-- that isn't the case.
~Confused in Scotland
posted by Carrie @ 1:04 PM
3 Comments:
Confused in Scotland,
I know exactly how you feel my dear - it seems like I run and run too - many times I feel as if I don't get anywhere. The truth is, we ARE running marathons - we are in the race for Christ and as Christians, we have to keep our heads held high and never give up.
You are in Scotland because God called you to go - He provided your way, and is blessing you while you are there. Sometimes it's difficult to "see" the results of ministry - I feel like this quite often. No matter our feelings, everything we do matters to God, we are all pieces of the puzzle, and right now, He has your piece gathering other pieces in Scotland! You are planting seeds and making a difference Carrie.
We all miss you back home, too. It is TOTALLY healthy to stay in touch with all of us - we are part of your support system, and besides, you will be coming back here you know! My prayers will continue for you.
~Just as confused in Riverside, CA
Ah, the joys of leaving home. Lots of us have been there, done that. We know how it feel and can sympathize with you. 1 Cor 9 is where Paul (I think its Paul) talks about running that race. Verse 24 of the Buitenwerf translation says “Everyone runs that race. It takes hard core training to keep in shape. So, TRAIN HARD and RUN TO WIN.” We’ve been studying this chapter with our JV kids over the past 2 months. Train Hard is the theme of our Iowa NAB JV Youth retreat this weekend. It so applies to all of us abroad and at home. You are no different than the rest of us, you just live where there’s cool castles and crappy weather! As for keeping in touch with “home”, I think its healthy so long as it doesn’t become your crutch. Chapter 9 also talks about letting nothing get in the way of spreading the gospel. You go girlfriend, spread the Good and Wonderful and Awesome news!
I dont think theres any problem staying in contact with us here.. cause this is your home. Just remember where you are. Thats the most important thing. You have one year to share Carrie with Scotland... use each day each moment to the fullist.
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